so if a boy is pretty much already a boy and a girl is pretty much already a
girl at the early stage of being twenty-four hour old and if the twenty-four
hour as a measure is for all of us the fair parameter for the entire life
span of our existence then I can assume we are condemned at a too praecox
stage to carry around bubs and balls not that I dislike such a rewarding
roundness but whenever a boy or a girl in their teens start running they
becomes painfully aware of the encumbering weight of their sinister glands
which can grow disproportionately becoming enormous even in a sterile
context as our world and bubs and balls a macrocosm of planets so we must
also learn to bear in mind the value of the sphere as a fundamental shape
for the being and try to fight the undervaluing attitude we cultivate in our
heads crowned with wounding spikes when we are prone to think that it is
much better being a stick a needle a line between two paradoxes than aiming
to became similar to a whale a hugeness a kingsizeness all worries that I
push up towards the top of a rocky hill as Jeremy did with his huge stone so
to embrace and hold all my troubles your troubles everybody's trouble
without which I would not be the one I am suspected be a ball-fish relishing
in an vicious use of its incorrect knowledge I might wake up one day sick
and tired of being damned and fall into another curse within twenty-four
hour between a fake awaking and a fake sleep to finally see myself as a
suspended eye a roundness of perception skimming the greenness of a pool
table where to meet other balls flying about other lives from hole to hole
globe to globe light to light blackness to blackness joy to joy pain to pain
all pretty much the same having the scary task of hitting a smaller ball to
enter six small black vacuums therefore behave I say behave you rodents do
not corrode the edges since in the edge is all compressed my sister the one
who never saw the light whose shape is in my mind whose name is of pure
emerald and who I love the unborn princess my parents' project the holy gem
the rounder of all Their Holy Highness the little succulent oyster in an
orange afternoon of boundlessness if only she had sat by me if she had stood
in her perfected roundness if she had talked and cried made herself a despot
on me this little sister I would have had deposited five hundred pounds a
month on her account to cultivate a self which did not belong to me which I
would have from time to time just borrowed .
Erminia
----- Original Message -----
From: massey susanne <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Wednesday, October 20, 1999 1:28 AM
Subject: Re: biotext project 3
> part 3
>
> so I was right when I suspected all the business of the self as being a
fake
> I find now that Hume said that our ideas of identity is the product of a
> huge mistake into which we fall as soon as we perceive time and space so
all
> my impressions of mister loneliness as one of my unchangeable objects is
but
> a fiction of my imagination by which he takes part to my life and
co-exists
> with me and all the shapes around and he is for me triangular squared
> hexagonal in his motionless consistency and sharp pyramidal presence like
a
> modern sculpture of wood lead copper on a stone pedestal with a continuous
> solid presence and an identity never vacillating for ever identical to
his
> many others all reproducible in the age of mechanical reproduction not
only
> a mere hypothesis with no ratio no sure ground matter of fact naked or
> dressed from head to toe he can stand in its silence and summarize two
three
> four concepts at once imagine how magic how gorgeous especially the
> principle according to which factual space is constructed on much the same
> ground as visual dominance and I can attribute to him tactual quality
> smoothness roughness hardness in my capacity of an observer but I am not
> sure I want to go that way there is indeed one passage in my interior
text
> book that says never trust a shape for its appearance your impression
should
> be one of reflection prayer and obsession therefore my first denial will
be
> firm no easy parasitical relation between the eye the mind and from this
> fact I'll let the blue be blue and turn the blue in white any moment any
> time on a circular stage or charge my ears with electricity to annihilate
> all thoughts and fall asleep so my constructs fail to be such and meets a
> lovely moon imperfect men in dreams of dissolution.
>
> Erminia
>
>
>
>
>
>
>
>
> > I have nothing to say believe me nothing to add to the world's routine
and
> > yet for the sake of the one who calls herself Candid I will try to
> conceive
> > a baby with five fingers for each little hand a perfect poppie back from
> the
> > slug's mire a thought my double wearing an unfamiliar mask I am not
> > disappointed by this request I will do it to overcome my stress but do
not
> > expect anything worth recording since all my days and all my nights are
> > nothing but a strive to sink into an inner song and be distracted from
> the
> > thought that I am condemned yes I am condemned to bear my limits and be
in
> > flesh and bones a woman carrying her body around so that when on my
tracks
> I
> > always bump into a curious block a young man with longish hair smooth
skin
> a
> > doll so perfect in his white projects what point I am not going to talk
of
> > this I will just let you know how he looks like so far the guy has one
> > leather jacket and one pair of shoes legs of a gru no good nobody would
> > guess he is also man of science matter of fact his house of mature
> > mellowness is all superfluous with traces of previous visitors a lover a
> > despot an art designer but listen when you look for a direction through
> the
> > body of an opponent Mio Dio this is not going to work and all I can do
is
> to
> > pay a price for my few goods so that satisfaction may come through sweet
> > eyes sharp mouths and add a micro pleasure to an acute desire he thinks
> it's
> > a sad when you learn that nobody is going to care about what you do and
> > whether early or late when you go home and find nobody you wish a lady's
> > charity to sooth your sorrow of course a comedy I serve my office I say
I
> do
> > my service I am not a nun whose irregularities would pervert an entire
> > convent you know better than me not all is Candid see what comes next my
> > friend you who arranged for us to write under the imperative of flesh
and
> > its barometers lady of my soul my dearest adorn your brain and be
> impassable
> > when you will listen to this man's coarse language, possibly a gift
> granted
> > every two months about the same amount.
> >
> >
>
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