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In a weird way, I've become my parents with lots of the edges removed. I won't call it "channeling" but you may if you want to. Lots of edges, but not all. I have my own. Ask my kids and my ex, among others. There is moment in the film "Philadelphia" in which the dying man played by Tom Hanks speak his version of an aria from Umberto Giordano's "Andrea Chenier" in which the character singing says something about having brought misery to everyone who loved her. I can't change the last two+ years but I can understand a lot of what happened. The reflections took my voice away until the other night. Suddenly I feel as though the adhesions broke. We'll see if anything follows. Time to go feed my cat. KW On Apr 20, 2012, at 7:41 PM, Stephen Vincent wrote: > Yes, I, too, remain haunted by a therapist (whose parents were dead) who once > told me that her parents, over the years, became closer and closer to her daily > life/consciousness, & that would be true for me and most of us. I sense that > more now, now with my dad dead now 7 years. I am never without a sense of his > presence, but particularly his vigor to go forward & damn the demons. He was not > the mosquito kind of guy. "Digging" back, I suspect, we are always doing that - > e.g.,the endless histories, tome upon tome, that we get of wars upon wars. > > > > Stephen Vincent > > > ________________________________ > From: Kenneth Wolman <[log in to unmask]> > To: [log in to unmask] > Sent: Fri, April 20, 2012 11:18:27 AM > Subject: Where Did I Leave Them? > > Where Did I Leave Them? > > They are still here. > My parents are then subject I know best. > A single subject, a trinity, > father, mother, and kicked-aside > unholy spirit, three persons in > indivisible unity. I've > let them go, so my penance is > to sit in silence. > > I cannot see what I've dropped > so do not trust this moment > because I can't believe I might > have found it, them, again, > my dearly beloveds, my obsession > hovering around my head, > unnetted swarm of mosquitos > digging in my ears.