Andy, I too have a poem which ends nearly on the same last lines/idea as yours but the topic is entirely different. I'll copy my poem here for you. Romania, Christmas, 1989 You've known this street for 30 years, its people, its colours, smells and sounds. Tonight you hear a new sound a machine gun, in your street, as if they're shooting a movie. Your mind, still working, tells you infra-red machine guns detect body heat in the dark, so you put the baby down on the carpet and cover him with your body, gently, not to crush him, so he can breath, and hope the guns will be fooled into detecting just one heartbeat, and if bullets should come they'll stop in your body and spare your baby. The machine guns break from time to time and the silence is even more frightening. Babies' cries can be heard a long way in this silence, and those people shoot in the direction of noises, but your baby is now asleep. You know the feeding schedule. Every 6 hours offer both breasts, alternately, no intermediary feedings between regular times or at night, so as not to spoil his appetite both modern pediatricians and old midwives agree on this, but you still offer your breast when he wakes up, so he doesn't cry in the silence. But your milk's just gone sour and the baby turns his nose in disgust. Then your milk stops flowing altogether. On the morning news you see a morgue, in other streets other mothers who have instinctively shielded their children with their bodies have been less lucky, modern technology bullets through one body and kills two at a time. They only shoot after dark. Next night, not knowing any better, you hide in the darkest corner of your home and you cover your baby again with your body and offer your milkless breast as a pacifier and try not to think about anything. Next morning you don't watch the news. The milk van and the bread van arrive at the corner deli and neighbours you've always known go out in the street. They don't talk to each other. Then there's night and day again in your street and you count days by the nights. Ioana Petrescu