>>I am working in academia again in a one year position (after 4 years in hiatus) and I have been a mostly solitary follower of the Goddess since 1990 or so. I see so many of you on that path too and applaud your willingness to speak freely. I am feeling constrained about my faith association and not knowing how open I can be about that on my campus. My first advice as a fellow priestess, is DON'T. I speak here as one who has championed openness in the past, and I was one of the architects of the UK Pagan community becoming publicly recognised during the '80s and '90s. Far too often people profess to be open minded and they don't even realise themselves how powerfully their feelings have been shaped by persistent Christian propaganda all their lives. This I have encountered repeatedly as people make friendly welcoming noises in theory and then move into rudeness, ostracism etc once my faith is openly declared. Lifelong propaganda by one of the world's most powerful institutions cannot be overcome by a couple of courteous conversations. Individual liaison is different. There you might have great success in confiding in one or two likely individuals. But choose carefully, and only during next semester, not now. They must have plenty of time to digest you as a sensible person so this understanding can combat the irrational ideas of "devil worshipper" "heathen" that surface once you declare yourself. The Church and Hollywood together have a powerful grip on people's fantasies! In particular my first years as a postgrad were hellish because my first supervisor stupidly boasted of acquiring an interesting PhD to supervise. As a result instead of letting people get to know me naturally, and showing them my faith as and when they seemed ready or interested, I was exposed early on, and duly suffered for it. Don't forget that our people are fighting social workers to keep their children; fighting spouses to retain custody in divorce settlements; having to conceal their faith to keep jobs; getting bricks through windows if they try to run a local busines; being harrassed by local councils for ditto. Academic theology is already feeling highly challenged by the whole Study of Religions field. The vista of complete female divinity, absolute female social and religious authority, and an immanent thealogy, is deeply disturbing to established interests. When people feel threatened around their turf they attack. As Dagmar suggested you can opt to be a martyr. But I think that viewing martyrs long ago across the centuries occurring for a brief period, is very different to becoming part opf the centuries of discrimination and persecution by Church bodies and Church associated institutions now. If your temperament is a social revolutionary and you love combat, go ahead and make an example of yourself. Your work will suffer. So will your health unless it blows over fast which is unlikely. You will create a reputation as a troublemaker, unstable, untrustworthy, which will follow you for years. You could be a mini Mary Daly and gather a network around you of passionate co-believers. This could be very exciting. But I warn you after only a few media interviews they become unpleasant and boring experiences one suffers in a good cause. And Mary Daly had a pretty solid standing before she squared up to the establishment, and still she lost her job. Unless you just want to enjoy this one year and accept that revealing yourself may very likely block any chance of getting another like it I'd stay very quiet on campus re your faith. Confide in a trusted few by all means. Construct ambiguous statements for students where they can derive support without being able to quote anything against you. By the end of next term you might be able to be more open with les personal risk. Again martyrs are exciting stories are great to read, appalling to live. The forwarding of Goddess spirituality does not ask for it. ("Nor do I demand sacrifice" The Charge) but instead for us to live in the fullest richest most beautiful and pleasureable way we can. I have slowly pieced together a personal network of scholars who are genuinely able to accept and respect my faith. That has taken a lot more than one year. So please don't crash your one precious year. Use it to gently create some small openings on which you can build later. Then when you have built some authority, got some publications out, become part of the conference circuit etc and with the support of a longer contract, or from a strong independent position, you can creatively and effectively use a strategy of openness. Be patient - we're on the way. Losing you to a premature bustup won't help. Priestess Shan Jayran Ovular/ Associate Lecturer University College Chichester/ current PhD www.ovular.co.uk