Come to in my office chair
2:40 in the morning
After a dream of failed tasks
exams not given
classes untaught
oh that was a baddie.
Fall into bed and the dream
is not through with me yet.
It is proctoring an exam in
the cafeteria of my elementary school
papers ungraded
Mr. Wolman what are we to do?
I do not know I remember
my own work left undone
a dissertation unwritten
chapters to be handed in
I cannot do this
I cannot answer for what I fear
or what I am supposed to do
for them or for myself.
The same dream, things dropped
cannot be found
cannot be recaptured
a dream of things lost
things that cannot be found
chasing in remembered hallways.
Ken
Truly awful dream. Delmore Schwartz was right: in dreams begin
responsibilities. Horrible. I've not had a "losing dream"-my standard-in
years, it came back last night. It took me a few minutes to collect myself
and realize my only call is to myself, from myself. Unrevised except to fix
Outlook's habit of capitalizing first lines of everything.
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