Hmmmm. Definitely another turn on this I hadn't thought of. And I might
have to print this post out and save it to show someone around here in a
year or two!
c
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Sent: 12/7/2003 4:21 PM
Subject: Re: this should brighten your day/media and control
Alas, I never had much sense of irresponsibility. I didn't much care
what
other people *thought* of me, but I was horrified by the thought of
hurting
anybody I didn't mean to hurt. It always seemed to me that being very
firmly
in control of what one was doing, being very careful about its
consequences,
was of prime importance; much more so that all of the stuff to do with
one's
personal "adventure" of learning, developing, growing etc. - all one big
alibi for lousy self-indulgent egotists in my view, then as now. Life -
even
adolescent life - is not an experiment. Other people are not there for
one
to experiment on / with. What I may have missed was the extent to which,
to
put it bluntly, none of it fscking matters. Everybody's a dickhead at
eighteen, even if they're trying as hard as I was not to be.
Dominic
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