Dear Paul,
Well, I must admit to feeling slightly low, but be assured that this is
on the other side of feeling relieved! There was a large part of me
that was not sure about working in ANY kind of system. And this alone
tells me, that maybe I am one of those people who are best served, and
can best serve, by being a loner. Then perhaps 'private practice', no
matter the difficulties in getting up and running, is going to be where
my efforts are best placed.
As to BACP accreditation, I reluctantly recognise that at some level, in
order to beat them, you have to join them. And so there will be
compromises that I have to make in order to practice at all, if what
Norman says actually comes into being.
What I also need to face is that I am a person who finds ANY red tape or
beurocracy (spelling?), irritating to say the least. This I know is
the rebel in me, who spent many years of her life under the mental
domination of a family system which nearly crushed her spirit, and that
now I am overly sensitive to being told what, or how or under what
circumstances, I can or cannot do anything.
And I listen to myself under these circumstances and think that because
of this, I need to work in a more liberated and self automated way.
This is an important part of who I am as a person and how I work as a
professional. I like to think that this element in me, can be a
signpost not only to listen to myself and follow a more clearly defined
path for myself, without feeling that I 'should' be a conformist in
order to be allowed to be me, but that it also enables and creates a
working relationship which allows others to do likewise.
So thank you Paul for the opportunity to reply to you and in doing so,
become much clearer about my own goals and how I walk towards that
destination. It's been good to talk.
A more resolved
Amanda
On Sunday, November 18, 2001, at 07:35 AM, Paul Carney wrote:
> My commiserations regarding your job interview. My personal
> feelings with both of the above parts of your message is the
> need for us to retain our belief in ourselves.. I hope that you
> have looked on the interview as an 'experience', which will
> stand you in good stead for the next?
>
>
>
> =====
> Best wishes
>
> Paul
>
> "All that I can do is tell the truth. No, that isn't so - I have missed
> it. There is no truth that, in passing through awareness, does not lie.
> But one runs after it all the same." (Jacques Lacan)
>
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